What Can I Do to Leave a Legacy?

January 20, 2018 Saturday

“What can I do to leave a legacy?

How can I speak with authority?…

You’re my revival song, you start with I belong,

On my knees, on my knees

When I am weak or strong, you need me here

When I’m on my knees, on my knees”

-Starts with Me by Tim Timmons

This topic appeared before my thoughts as I was calming my heart with devotional music, one of the few routines I would walk through to begin the day. A quicker routine that would take place prior was me stepping out of bed, after having rubbed my eyes and yawned, and getting down on my knees—knees against floor, forehead against knees—to quiet myself for a minute or two if needed. Sometimes I have a conversation with God, but usually I’m the only one talking. Unfair but fair, I do welcome Him to speak to and with me throughout the day, but mentally yet unfiltered, I just want to express and ask for help—and I find that pleasing to Him. The purpose of this “routine” is to get my heart right (Proverbs 4:23).

“Thank You for another day. Thank You for everything You have done for me and for everything You have given me. I’m burning with excitement about what’s about to happen today. I ask that You provide me with clarity of thoughts, narrow-minded focus, un-quenching desire, a billionaire’s work ethics, an unwavering faith, and a protected heart of purity.” After having blurted out all the things I want from God, I would close in my trying humility, all so often one inch off from hypocrisy, “I invite You to walk the day with me, speak to me, and let me humble myself to do what You lead me to do. I believe Your plans are greater than my plans, Your thoughts are a whole universe higher. But still, please let me do what my heart burns for. Hehe. Thank you, Jesus.”

Raised in faith-based Christianity (versus religion-based), I know “Amen” means something. Yet, as I grow older, I intend to say it less because it has subconsciously become a part of the lines I’ve rehearsed and remembered by brain, not by heart. The moments I caught myself NOT saying Amen when I didn’t put a gram of thought to it, I would give myself an “Aha!” chuckle, then close the prayer by giving thanks.

This article is reaching an end (as little information as I have disclosed). Perhaps this is more for myself than for others: more of a self-reminder than a persuasive telling you to follow my steps regardless of your background (No, this is not my intention). I just found it refreshing as I was reminded of the lyrics of Timmon’s song. It’s easy to know (from my shoes) that God’s power, wisdom, and love are so abundant that I may live a much more fruitful and purposeful life if I were to follow all of His ways than my own. Yet, humility is a never-ending life coach. Not everyone’s existence on earth is measured and manifested equally. But I just know: I’m here to leave a legacy. My faith may be strong, my naiveness may be real, and my heart may certainly be burning, but my ability and intelligence are surely flawed and fragile. I have a thesis for this article, but it stays a secret for now. It is my prayer that my thesis will become apparent 5 years later.